Friday, December 08, 2006
my bad
i still catch myself, looking at his profile...staring at his pictures.
asking myself the "what ifs" and telling myself the "i should'ves".
but i know life would be so different if we didn't go our separate ways.
i wouldn't learn to love myself and appriciate how great i can be.
i wouldn't know how to stand on my own and fight for myself and say what i want to say.
i know that it looks as if am hoping for us to be back together, but i am so done with that. it's just that there are days that you miss the person...but you don't want to be with him.
you're ok with the way things are but you just want to see how things are going for him...
well..honestly..wondering if he also checks your profile and sees what you've accomplished and hope that he's proud of you.
is this bad?what am doing?
i've honestly let go of any hope of anything for us...not even friends.
oohhh well.... he's now just a part of my past... not even a fragment of my future.
i posted this a couple of years back.
i friggin ass ate my words.."he's now just a part of my past... not even a fragment of my future."dammit..he now holds the present.
there's also another line..."i've honestly let go of any hope of anything for us...not even friends."now...we are very good friends...but am still not sure of what the future holds for the two of us.
its not really complicated...we're happy with our friendship and the way things are. we talk about things that we didnt talk about before. its different in a way but at the same time there are alot of similarities.
am kinda back to my old ways though..hhmm...
