i was tinkering with my friendster blogs to find interesting stuff to put in my "getting to know you journal" (c/o venus) and i read this post i made a couple of years back.
it was dated april 24, 2005
to be honest..i don't really remember this..but this was before i went to CCA. so i know who i was sorta talking about. enjoy!;)
i read this article in candy mag, about one persons realization how hard a break up can be.
i can totally relate what he said. that everything seems to remind you of that person. every song seems to hit you like a stake in the heart. you just wanna cry every time you see the things he gave you, the pictures and the letters. you just smile every time you remember the moments that you've shared. Good thing you have friends to be there for you(aside from your cigs and booze). to catch your back, to hold your hand, to laugh at you when your mascara ran because of your tears and you just look like a monster. they're there to tell you that every thing's OK, you'll find someone better or its not yet the time for you guys to be together.
i believe that i am meant for someone. i know he's out there somewhere, and i lift everything up to GOD. I've had my heart broken into pieces so small you can't see it with the naked eye. now, i am trusting God and my friends more instead of just jumping into the water by myself.
and besides, why mope around and be depressed when there is so much in this world to experience? a lifetime is not enough to witness what the whole world is to offer, why would you waste a day on just sulking? live for today, cherish the past and just fantasize about the future. God has His way of introducing to us the one we'll be with. it's just for us to decide.
contentment.happiness.wellness.understanding.open-mind.respect.honesty.
