i am 25.
i've been through alot.
i've got my heart broken so many times, that i don't know when it'll get fixed again.
i've created this huge wall to shield me from getting hurt but its confusing me more now.
am scared as hell.
so many thoughts have been running through my head that i don't know what to really think of.
i've heard so many things from so many people that it's breaking me more.
i just want to burst and cry.
it's not easy taking somebody who broke your heart
countless times back. you would always think, "what if he does it to me again?"
but at the same time you're thinking "what if he's changed?".
you can't fully give your trust, you're still testing the waters.
yesterday..everything seemed so right.
why all of a sudden...so many questions popped in my head?
my heart is telling me to take the chance.
try to make it work.
but at the same time..my head is reminding me
of everything he's done to me.
i really want to make this work.
and i know no matter what happens, i will be a stronger person
because of it.
i know you guys understand why and i love you all for accepting my reasons.
to you: this won't be as easy like the first time. are you sure of what you asked me? its a different story now. it's not all kilig like it was before. am a tougher nut to crack. are you willing to really get to know the new me? coz am telling you that i am more than willing to get to know the new you.
