this is going to be SO tough

i am 25.
i've been through alot.
i've got my heart broken so many times, that i don't know when it'll get fixed again.

i've created this huge wall to shield me from getting hurt but its confusing me more now.
am scared as hell.
so many thoughts have been running through my head that i don't know what to really think of.
i've heard so many things from so many people that it's breaking me more.
i just want to burst and cry.

it's not easy taking somebody who broke your heart
countless times back. you would always think, "what if he does it to me again?"
but at the same time you're thinking "what if he's changed?".
you can't fully give your trust, you're still testing the waters.

yesterday..everything seemed so right.
why all of a sudden...so many questions popped in my head?
my heart is telling me to take the chance.
try to make it work.
but at the same time..my head is reminding me
of everything he's done to me.

i really want to make this work.
and i know no matter what happens, i will be a stronger person
because of it.

i know you guys understand why and i love you all for accepting my reasons.

to you: this won't be as easy like the first time. are you sure of what you asked me? its a different story now. it's not all kilig like it was before. am a tougher nut to crack. are you willing to really get to know the new me? coz am telling you that i am more than willing to get to know the new you.

how i wish it was sunday already

dang!!what a way to kick off the lenten season.
i can't wait for palm sunday.

its the bought between PACQUIAO and MARQUEZ.
everybody's been talking about it.
they say that our very own manny has his eyes set on this..
hhhmm..lets see..
the Filipino people will be frigin ass screaming, if he wins this.
will this stop all the talk about to government?hhmm..
i bet..just for one day..it will.

For us "AUTO RACING" fans..its also a great day.
it's the start of the 2008 Formula 1 season.
(yes you heard it right...i do watch formula one).
It will start with the Australian Grand Prix.
Can Ferrari dominate again this year?
let's all wait and see!:)

here's the thing...
the F1 race is at 11 am..
i dont know what time the match is.
OMG..there'll be a conflict
in my tv viewing this sunday.
haha!!:D

a pint of ice cream will really help you feel a bit better.

i've been feeling crappy lately.
i did something i know i shouldn't have done.
been looking like a raccoon because of my lack of sleep.
starting to eat alot again, and chugging up bottles of beer everyday.

i feel crappier by the day, when i know i shouldn't.
so i went to the grocery today, bought a pint of
my favorite, green tea ice cream of FIC.(yum yum)

half way throught my pint,
i realized that am starting to feel a bit better.
that there are more things in life that i have to think of
than these crappy things i've been going through.

in time i know my problems will go away.
these people that hurt me, i will eventually let
go of whatever am feeling for them.
they will just be a fragment of my past,
the truth of the present and not a part of my future.

i will just move on and enjoy the company of
my friends and will meet new ones in the process.